its been a whole year....

Last year april 21st 2008 was the day my life turned around. At around 2 am I was loosing my first baby that I was gonna bring into this world. The story.....

At around february 25th 08 I find out that me and henry were expecting our first bundle of joy, and I was already one month in !! The excitement, and happiness was everywhere when we found out. I went to the clinic for a checkup becuz I wasn't feeling too good..so we went to just see the doctor and take few blood test..but little did we know we were in for a big surprise!

I remember this day like if it was yesterday.

As me, henry and mannys wife wait in the waiting room to be called, the doctor calls out my name. Henry and mannys wife, liz, comes in with me. Henry says is everything ok with my wife? The doctor says u know ur pregnancy test is positive right?.......silence.....wut!!!!!!! Lol.....I look at henry, he says are u sure!? Are u sure ur lookin at ariana velez' results?! Doc says yes ariana velez u are about one month pregnant!!! Omg the tears came out of me and henrys eyes! As soon as the doctor keeps talkin, henry and I just kept staring at eachother, and staring until tthe doctor says congratulations! Is this ur first child? I say yeess!!! Omg we are pregnant!!!! Mannys wife was like I knew it!!!!! Lol ahhhh wut a day....

Days, weeks, months go by....I had an ultrasound appt ready for April 2nd...henry and I go in with our heads high..even though I felt weird and I knew somethin was gonna go wrong, the tech calls me in only, henry had to wait outside and that made me more nervous cause I wanted him to be there with me! There I am layin down and she has the machine on my belly, she asks me questions like, have I had any type of bleeding or pain, and I said no I haven't,..so all of a sudden she finishes. Im like is everythin ok she says ur doctor is gonna hve to tell you...im like ok. I go to henry with tears like henry somethin is wrong! First off she didn't tell me anythin about the baby and she didn't even give me a pic! According to my last menstral period, I was allready 3 months in! So I was upset!

Henry was like wut happened ari? I said she didn't say anythin, she didn't give me a picture and I asked her wuts wrong and she said I have to speak to the doctor!!! Henry immediatly went to talk to the supervisor of the clinic to demand answers!!! As we wait to talk to my doctor..she calls us in, me henry and my lil sis dari. She says we looked at ur ultrasound..and im sorry to say but they baby did not grow at all inside ur womb! Omg! She says that's called a Blighted Ovum..an empty sac! I started to cry!!!!!!!!!!! Right then and there I knew wut she was talkin about becuz I did research on types of misscarriages..so she explained to henry and I that its none of our faults..henry insisted it was all his faults cause he smoked cigs and weed all the time! The doctor said no..miscarriages happen ...he left the room and went to the bathroom next door and started to cry and throw things around!....it was the worst day in our lives!!! So as soon as I calm down I go see henry in the bathrrom to calm him down, we hugged and I said don't worry everything will be ok babe, lets go back inside. So the doctor says that I have 2 options, either I have a D&C done (D&C is a procedure where they eliminate all wuts left inside my womb, the placenta the yolk sac.etc) or have a natrual misscarriage. I go wit the natrual misscariage, even though I knw it will be more painfl than an abortion, we decided that's wut we wanted.

The doctor says the misscariage will happen within 2 to 3 weeks so be prepared

The day finally comes april 21 at around 2 am! Mind you I haven't had any heavy bleeding, cramping, etc...so when it came I wasn't ready for it at all. Henry and I go to bed at around 11pm....all of a sudden I wake up at around 11 30..go to the bathroom, nd I sit on the tiolet with these worse cramps ever!!!! I start to bleed lil by lil..more and more time passes im gettin these severe cramps even more!!!! I try to be quiet so I won't wake up anyone. Al of a sudden I scream! The pain was too much for me to handle!!! I scream to henry!!! Henry call 911!!! Its time!!!! He wakes up, puts his clothes on, calls 911 he tells them im 14 weeks prego and im havin a misscarriage, they tell him to have me lyin down..so henry carrys me to the bed to lie down..but ass soon as I lied down the pain got worse!!!! I scream and scream and cry!!!! I start to dry heave a lot!!! About to throw up cause the pain was unbearable!!!!

The emt come in finally!! Henry helps me walk down the stairs and as soon as we hit the bottom where the front door was at...I felt the baby come out! I ttell them my baby came out!!!!!! Henry was like babe are u srrious I said yess the baby was literally on my underwear! I tell the emt members my baby came out! They are like noo its just ur imagination sweety don't worry!!! Im like bullshit! I knew it was the baby cause I had no more pain!!! So while I was on strecther..I wasn't even in pain any more. The put me in the room. The nurse tells me to undress myself from waist down.and once I took off my paanty I see it!!!! The placenta, the sac, everything!!! Henry look!!! Im cryin once again he calss the nurse! Nurse!! She comes in and sees it! Immediatly she takes it out and puts in a cup.....henry and I just stare at it.....I feel so drained and im actually releived the pain is gone. The nurse leaves to get the doctor, as soon as she leaves henry take the cup and takes a picture of the baby....our first baby who is in heaven. I still have that pciture..but I refuse to post the pic cause some people might get grossed out evenn though it all cam out..it wasn't in pieces or anything.

Wut a day it was..april 21st..a day we will never forget.....